Dear Prudence

I'm exhausted. I may be getting sick from it? I sure hope not. I'm also still stressed. Although, a huge burden was lifted from my shoulders last night. Finally, the wedding is over. My brother is married and I have a new sister in law. The wedding day was a beautiful perfect day. It didn't rain. Thank goodness. Everything somehow worked out. Another thank goodness. I'll have to post some pics soon. It has been a very very long week. I did a lot, a heckuva lot more than i expected doing. And now I know what not to do for my wedding, whenever that comes around, and also how to make things go smoother. I played dj, at the wedding reception. That was fun. Almost had a disaster with the music, but Dayne pulled through for me. I made a love playlist and I got a lot of compliments on the music. Yay go me! I also got lots of compliments on how beautiful I looked. Always nice to feel pretty. :) It was a fun week though. I loved having Chris, Kara, Molly, and Aaron home.  I'm so glad they came up and were here to help, otherwise I would have gone insane. I also loved having some girl time with Molly and Kara. Those girls understand me! Love them! I just can't believe they were all here for a week basically, and I feel like we didn't spend any time together. Bummer. And we don't get to have Christmas together. Who knows when we'll all be together again. I love our times together.

I love the fact that this sweatshirt says I love Dayne. haha. Let me brag about Dayne.Um Dayne is my cousin, basically my best friend, and he is amazing! Pretty dang humble too. I swear the boy is so dang talented. He is really intelligent, plays piano, writes songs, at one point played violin, has an amazing voice with a really incredible range, dances, acts, very techy savy, created these awesome slideshows, is a great photographer, and just has an eye for things that the rest of the world usually doesn't see. This list could go on and on. He does a lot, and he is so creative. He also is always so willingly to help with anything. That kid is definitely going to do great things when he's older. He is going places. I can see him being this famous director, or composer, or just something big! Love him to death. I'm thankful that he was there this past weekend to help me with lots of things, and I'm glad he's always there for me. That is all. :) 

haha. I love this picture. So I'm still stressed, because naturally the busiest shopping week is this one. Black Friday...yikes. we don't have that many bg sales but it is insanely busy. And we are short employees, especially cashiers. Should be interesting?! So I'm still recovering from this past week and I'll have to recover from this upcoming week. I need a vacation. haha. But turkey day is this week. yay food and family. k, I need to go to bed now.

xoxo

You're really beautiful....

Amen. xoxo

Overrated

Boys are overrated. I bet you expected me to say something like that huh? Eh well, it is usually on my mind. I guess it's on everyone else's mind too. I keep talking to people and reading blogs and whatnot. Darn you holidays! If you don't want to listen to me rant about this, I'd stop here. I'm just so sick of love and this never-ending game of looking for a potential future eternal companion. Don't get me wrong, the idea of actually succeeding at that would be incredible. However, I'm getting fed up with it. Let me explain why. First off, guys play these dirty tricks. They start with the sweet talk and lots of compliments. Oh, how I love those things. They ask lots of questions, acting like they really are interested in what's going on with me and what makes me. And oh how I love someone that talks to me, and actually listens, and it's not all about them the whole time. They call, and send lots of texts, messages...etc. So I start to slowly give in then BAM....snap.... trapped! Maybe they aren't looking for something long term. I can understand that. I'm not asking to fully commit right now, just see how things go. I understand that not everyone is compatible and right for each other, that happens too. But really, I can't stand the jerks out there that think they can just walk all over me and treat me badly. No no, that is not happening anymore. Also, there are those stupid perverts, who just want some action. I'm not that kind of girl. Where do some of these guys get the idea that somehow me being a good girl is just an act. Psh, I'm not perfect. But I like having a good girl image. And I don't appreciate being treated like an object, or someone to fulfill your little fantasy. Please, hire a whore and stop using me. And seriously, when I say no, for real that means no. That doesn't mean ask later, I'll change me mind, it means absolutely, positively no. Now back off. And don't think I'm like all the other girls. I grew up with boys. I understand a thing or two about them. I like things plain and simple. I like honesty and being direct. I don't want to complicate anything. For the most part, I'm a nice person. I don't like being mean. I think this would be my downfall. I have got to stop being so nice to these stupid boys.  Because somehow, I'm the one who always gets hurt. 

Earlier this year I read part of a book with a friend and we made goals and lists. (So typical of me, I know) 10 absolutely must haves and 10 absolutely can not haves in a future companion. I mean I already have a list of future qualities I want in a spouse. Thank you young women's for making me write a list every Sunday practically. But this is something that you want. They can't change. No giving in, no settling. I’ve been told numerous times by my father that "the only time we can afford being selfish is in choosing a mate." My friend suggested this makes life easier because you say no to everyone unless they posses these qualities. (I also would expect my future spouse to have somewhat of a list and expect similar things from me) However, like I said my downfall is being too nice.  So here's my list. Some are more specific, others are broad. Some have little like subcategories. Some may seem silly to you, but it's my list so don't judge. haha.

Haves:

 1. Can verbally communicate well (makes decisions, gets to the point, honest, open and isn't afraid to tell me anything)

 2. Spiritual (RM, worthy priesthood holder, dedicated to the Lord)

3. Appearance is important to him. (Clean cut, button up shirts, always dresses to impress)

4. Sings and dances

5. Gentleman (opens doors, respects me, can order for me, manners)

6. Affectionate (Not excessively in public, but cute. Kisses on the forehead, hand holding...etc)

7. Emotional (Tough but sensitive, doesn’t cry more than me, doesn't have jealousy issues, trust me)

8. Outgoing (confident, doesn't leave me in the shadows, funny)

9. Has to be LDS and can't join just because of me

10. Unconditional Love (openly loves me no matter what, tells me he loves me at least once a day)

Can't Haves:

1. Selective kindness (Nice to some but not to others)

2. Arrogant

3. Mama's boy, too feminine

4. Different culture or way different background

5. Drinking/Cursing/Drugs

6. Dirty (dirty thoughts, speech, actions...)

7. Not involved in pornography

8.Doesn't embarrass me (Not too goofy, can be serious when necessary, doesn't make me feel uncomfortable)

9. Rude, walks around like he owns the place, invades privacy

10. Argues, yells, distant

For once, I just wish I had someone who actually respected me and liked me for me. It would also be nice to actually have someone to bring to all these family events, for instance, the wedding this weekend. Once again, I'm the only single one. Bummer.

xoxo

Word.

So, I finally bought an apron! It's sooooo cute! I love cooking and baking and now I have a cute apron so my clothes don't get dirty! yay! I also bought a holiday recipe magazine. How excited am I to try them out? Oh so excited!...I'm such a weirdo!

And you know that Hobby Lobby book I've been thinking about writing?...haha more things need to be added. oh the juicy gossip of Hobby Lobby. Drama, Drama, Drama....yikes!

The countdown to 25days of Christmas on ABCFamily has begun. Oh my goodness, I love Christmas movies. <3

xoxo

Oh Stress and Joy

In one week exactly my amazing family will be coming together for a joyous occasion....Justin and Norma's wedding. Oh my lanta, where has the time gone? I mean the wedding is almost here. It seems like they just got engaged. Time slow down please?  Although, I'll be glad when it's over. So much stress in the atmosphere! I'm so excited to see all of family and especially to have us all together. That won't happen much anymore. Everyone is growing up. Married and soon babies. Money is tight, and it's hard to bring everyone together. It's just kinda sad. However, next week and weekend will be so awesome! Seeing the sights in Georgia, pulling all nighters for video games, lots of catching up and long talks, and naturally lots of laughter and trips down memory lane. I <3 my family.

Christmas is almost here. yikes. I mean the stores are playing Christmas music already. I am constantly finding myself humming or singing Christmas songs. Help! I like to actually wait for the season. Also, since Christmas has arrived technically, the rude customers are out. The mess begins. Busy, long days, that never stop. Constantly having to wrap ornaments, and call trees by saying names like frosty, snowman, or twinkle toes. (k, so I made up the last one) haha. But seriously, everyone is putting up a fight about being right and getting their way. And it's only just begun. Tis' the season! haha Eh, I kinda like  it sometimes. Also, I think it's been hard because my work has been going through a transition with a new manager.  Everyone is still adjusting and figuring things out. I think it'll be good though. It's what our store needs I think. Oh man though, Christmas will be so weird this year. Me and parents. I'm not use to that. I won't have anyone to wake up or to wait until my turn to open gifts. haha. :(  I need a bf then we can at least do all the fun Christmas things together and I won't be lonely. Parades, seeing all the lights, window shopping, parties...blah pity party. haha

 haha....oh twilight. No worries. I will be seeing it at midnight next Thursday/Friday with Mom, Molly, Kara, and Dayne. I am beyond pumped. Too bad I don't really remember much from the 2nd book. I need to reread it. Btw that website I like.. MLIA (mylifeisaverage), had a post on it the other day. It's hilarious. "Today, while taking a walk outside, I passed a girl who looked about 11. She was singing "santa clause is coming to town" but with some of the words changed. I didn't realize what she was singing until I heard "he sees you when you're sleeping. you knows when you're awake. his name is edward cullen so be ready to get raped." you have restored my faith in today's youth, little girl. MLIA" hahahahaha I died laughing. I love twilight don't get me wrong, but Edward could totally be a creeper.

Oh, I should probably list my major stresses, since that is in my title. I feel busy, like unusually busy. I need time to myself, maybe a vacation?! I need some time to breathe and take things in. However, I can't find that time. Maybe I need to go on a nice long run? or maybe a drive? Idk. Um, along with time quickly coming and going, January is approaching quickly. What am I doing with my life?...I don't know. School here, school in Utah, work, no work...um I really don't know. I'm still trying to figure things out. Worst feeling ever. Okay probably not the worst, but it definitely is up there. Sometimes I would like to fast forward through these decisions when life is some what making sense. But when does it ever? And besides I'd hate to miss the good times.

Hello, new music?! I love the recent music I have bought. All the artists have been making me very happy. Dashboard...thank you for being like my favorite band and coming out with a new cd. Okay so on Carrie Underwood's new cd, she has this song entitled "Songs Like This" I love this song.... like I full on turn it up and bust it out. ...Banging on the steering wheel, dancing like a fool. If I posted the lyrics, it wouldn't make sense. (revenge, boys suck?!haha) It's just catchy, and a feel good girl-power song. haha. Listen to it. really. haha.

 

Why does my grammar and spell checker never work for my posts?...grr.  I really have no idea what else I wanted to say in this post. Eh here's to the joys and stresses of life, I suppose.  haha.  xoxo