Poetry

Here are some poems I wrote for my Creative Writing class. They are works in progress, mind you.

Waiting Call

After Mary Oliver’s ‘The Rabbit’

Solicitous,

And in a dismay.

The pressure, an evil we all face,

Is on the rampage. And the buttons that cover

Are worn thin with the goodness of use

Lay untouched now. Only he,

And his omnipotent keys of hope ,

Have the necessary power. I tremble

With anticipation, as the light begins to

Progressively get brighter. I inhale

The flashes of memories in my mind, that seem so distant now,

Springing like death from a scene from a movie

Beckoning me

To partake. And suddenly

I can. Time passes quickly and the moment has slipped,

By a second of hesitation. Beyond my great fear

I catch a glimpse of hope shining through, a wish that has come

True on a bight shooting star—

Don’t you understand this madness?—the cycle begins once again.

Mr. Goose

Still, silence

The end has come

A friend has fallen

The darkness surrounds him

Lying there in the mist of blackness

With no rocket of hope for a tomorrow

Sprawled out

Fallen from the rusty looking basket

Beautiful, vibrant

Perfection of pure whiteness

Completely lifeless

Wings ruffled but peaceful

Ever so peaceful

The hollow glasses stand near

A sign of emptiness

This journey has come to a close Mr. Goose

The stilled life

I'm a poet and didn't even know it!! haha

xoxo

So now I come to you with open arms

....I love the song "Open Arms" by Journey. Beautiful. 

Hopefully this won't be too terribly long. Get ready for the list and rambles: 

• My bishop was adorable today. His little grandson came into the shop today and he took him to the safe and was showing him different tubes of coins and shaking them. Then he says "Can you say coin? What about penny?" Starting him young. haha. I love little children, and their beaming faces, oh that laugh. That precious laughter. Aha....
• My future husband better be able/willingly to do the dishes. I hate dishes, and I feel like lately that is all I've been doing. It's not hard to wash your dish, and put it in the dishwasher. Empty the dishwasher every once in a while....come on people.
• Random yelling is happening outside my apartment again. Awesome.
• I'm setting people up in the P3 box (Planned, Prepared, Paid for..dating box). It's going to be brilliant. Shh, don't tell anyone though. 
• One of my happiest moments this week, is the fact that my bishop gave me the ward member sheets. So now I know who is musically talented. There is so many people in the ward that have music abilities, you have no idea how excited I am about this.  
• I am very tired, my bed is beckoning me. But the hw is screaming at me. Such a shame. 
• Dear John just came out on DVD. Grant it, this movie made me bawl and feel like I had just gone through an incredibly difficult break-up, but I am going to buy it. Why? Because their is a beautiful, sexy man in it, sometimes I like when it doesn't end all happy, and if I do want it to end happy I trick my mind and stop it at a happy part. haha. Win.
• There is an incredible opportunity that is in reach, maybe. A lady from Bonneville Communications, who I have been e-mailing, is looking to hire some video editors. They do a lot of work for the missionaries and things in the church. Think of the possibilities! Plus, I would love love love it. 
•  This weekend is Memorial Day...my plans consist of pool, laying out, reading, studying, basking in my awesomeness....ha. yikes.
• I made chocolate mousse Monday. It was delicious and so easy to make. 
• I love envelopes that when you lick the seal, it taste somewhat decent. Hallmark, would be one of those examples.
• I really need to do my hw like now.
• My next Netflix movie is Rocketman. Does is ring a bell?... Disney channel, 1997, space blanket costumes, painting with food, monkey, idiot genius? I'm so excited to watch it. haha. 
• I love the random nicknames, or code-names that my friends and I come up for people. :)
• I received a hilarious text today, that made me laugh literally out loud. I can not pass this text along though, it would not make sense to the common person. ha. 
• I especially enjoyed my religion class tonight, so many beautiful topics. However, this is not the time nor place to discuss them.
• Happy Birthday to my MA today! She's fabulous, and I miss her a lot, a lot. 3 months until I see her! yay!
• I forget the purpose of this post....haha

thoughts over. 

xoxo.

Disgusted

Before I go into why I am disgusted I have some others things to say...

First off, I'd like to say that people are so creative in this world! I love reading blogs. I love finding a new, good one, to read often that catches my attention. When I find out someone, that I'm good friends with, has a blog, I go crazy! haha. I love how colorful, and full of pictures, and videos, and eye popping some blogs are. Also, some people talk about the funniest things, and they are so witty, or so insightful. And then there is my blog. haha. I only know what I think of it, I do not know how an outside reader looking in feels about my posts. Do share your thoughts and feelings...

This has nothing to do with anything on my mind, but I use to hate broccoli and especially broccoli salad. Now I love it. It's one of my favorite things to eat. I just made an incredible broccoli salad, courtesy of my cooking class, and it's divine. 

I spent the day on campus in the library. To be more exact I was in the periodical section. Fabulous. I never spend much time in this section of the library, however I think I will start. I was working on my literary project which basically is reading poetry, short stories, essays...very exciting. I love reading.  

I went to Smith's to buy some cream. I found a fabulous recipe of chocolate mousse that I want to try. So, while I was at the store I was in my own little world thinking about my experience at the At&t store, when this guy was walking past me. I kind of came back to reality and noticed him, he looked sort of familiar. He smiled, I still had my look of contemplating on my face (which looks like I'm ticked, btw), and then I see it. The awkward almost wave- they don't respond -so pretend you were scratching an itch- type wave. Embarrassing. He was trying to wave, but seeing as I had this look of back off, I'm annoyed on my face, and because I didn't even acknowledge him, he tried to act like he wasn't waving. Yikes. I only recognized this wave because, I have been on the opposite end of this situation many, many times. I know someone, I try and wave, they stare, quick, change the wave to fixing my hair. Awkward. I felt bad. Especially since, I didn't realize how I knew him until 10 secs later. I had to play the whole go through my entire life and see if I can remember him. At first I thought he was in my ward, nope he's from my English class. Which makes it even more sad because there is only like 10 people in there. haha oops 

I've been listening/watching Brian Regan's comedy acts on youtube. (Apparently it's a sin that I've only recently heard of him, and never listened to his acts) He's funny and pretty clean, which is refreshing. Here's  one I just heard and about peed my pants from laughing so hard.

I went to At&t to get a clear cover for my touch screen. Well first off I went in and usually they are super nice and helpful. However, I went to the store in towne center, which is not the normal at&t store that I go to. There were only two guys working. Well, I walked in and they looked at me, no smile, no hi, no nothing. So I look around trying to find the cover, no luck. So I go up to the counter. They didn't say a word to me. I finally had to say, "Excuse me, can I get some help?" Well, one of the guys walks over to me and asks what he can help me with. I explain, he kind of directs me towards  the cover section. He looked at my phone and says "oh you have a so and so phone" He had no clue what phone I had. Well, I already saw that my phone's cover wasn't there. So he starts to look. A couple that walked in behind me were over in another section looking at stuff. So what does the idiot do that is helping me? Stops looking for what I needed and asks the other couple if he can help them. Then he walks over to them and starts to help them. For real? Talk about bad customer service. That's so rude! I seriously was about to start going off on him, or walk out. Oh it made me so angry! He completely ignores me and helps this couple, check out and all, and I am still standing there (I'm sure steam was fuming from my ears). The other guy who is working finally takes notice of me and says oh you're still here. err duh. He looks up where I can get a cover. There is one apparently located at another store across the street or something. So they asked me if I could wait, give them like 15 mins to run and get it and bring it back. I leave go to bath and body works and come back. They had it, and put it on for me. Which I did appreciate. And it turns out the rude guy knows my cousin from like years ago when she was a freshman at BYU before her husband and kids. Great. Wouldn't that make you angry though? I should have left, I should have said something, instead I will be writing an email to At&t. kthanks.

Now for my story. While I was at the At&t store, the semi helpful guy decided to make small talk. There was a kid, I'd say about 10 or so, that was in the store looking at an iphone and he wanted to know where the volume was. They couldn't figure out why he wanted to know, and he just kept saying "I need volume!" Anyways, so the guy made a comment to me that he hates kids. I asked why. He responded saying, there was this kid that came in yesterday and he walked to the phones to look at them. And following behind the kid there was the At&t's friend who works for t-mobile. So the friend was like staring the kid down. Well the At&t  guy went to him and asked the t-mobile guy what's going on, and he told him he needs to keep an eye on the kid and watch him closely.  Apparently, the kid was looking at porn on the phones. The At&t guy walks over to the kid and the kid quickly tries to exit out of what he's looking at. Well, the At&t guy brings it up and he kicks the kid out and tells him that he can't look at stuff like that on the phones.---Are you kidding me?! Has the world really gotten that bad where people, even children, go into a public place and look at pornography? I was shocked! What the heck is wrong with people? Do they not realize how inappropriate that is? Do they not feel guilty when someone catches them looking at that trash? What is going through their mind? Pornography is addicting, and it's destructive. Oh my goodness! I had no idea how 'common' this was to people. I am disturbed, disgusted, and appalled. 

I don't mean to talk about such sensitive subjects. I realize people may have a problem with this, or other things similar to this. It's a reality though, and we need to take hold of this serious issue and stop it in it's path, before it destroys everything and everyone. I know people are out there that have problems with this, and I know the temptation may be enticing, but it will ruin you.We are all human and we all will be tempted by the adversary. However, help is out there. You can overcome and you should. There is hope, change is possible. The church came out with a new website for those who are dealing with overcoming pornography, or helping someone you know overcome with it. I think it's a good website, not just for those dealing with this, but for everyone to look at. It's a harsh reality, but it needs to be addressed and taken care of. 

  http://combatingpornography.org/cp/eng/    

Okay, this post ended up being a lot longer than I wanted it to be. Whoops. And just think this was only about today, this one day. haha. 

xoxo

I would like to point out

I love serving others and giving. I like making someone's day, giving encouragement, and doing something unexpected. It brings me happiness. I like knowing that I may have done something to lift their spirits, even if it's just for a brief second. I am a very service oriented individual. 

 However, when I work on something, and I go out of my way to do something, it would be nice if: 1) it actually worked out, and my efforts weren't a complete waste 2) if they could be sincerely grateful and 3) maybe eventually return the favor (I know asking a lot. This one isn't that necessary to me. I'm okay with giving and not receiving for the most part).  

It drives me nuts when I take the time to do something and it doesn't work out, especially if it's something that I do against my better judgement. I'm being nice when sometimes I shouldn't go through that effort especially if they treated me a certain way. I know that has something to do with holding grudges, but there is a limit to how many times someone can put up with getting mistreated by another person. I tend to overlook that and do it anyways though. Hence the regretting afterwards because of how it played out or how they responded. I'll still continue giving no matter how someone treats me, it's just who I am. 

And as far as the being grateful, I like doing things usually without them knowing. But when it is obvious, give credit where credit is due. Just a simple thanks would be nice. I try to show my gratitude, it makes me a happier person and makes me realize blessings I have in my life. 

My situation currently would be the first, wasted effort. And now, here I sit disappointed that I even bothered going through with it all. It was a simple off on timing thing, but still if you knew the story behind this, you would understand my frustrations. I give them credit for at least thanking me for the thought...blah.

Don't find me odd,(even though I really am) but I have to write poetry for my creative writing class. I just wrote a poem about this. ha. I'm actually enjoying writing poetry. In a few short words you can expound on so much. Every line can take on a different meaning. Fascinating really. Plus, I kind of feel better now, after writing it. Maybe I'll share my poetry in the next few posts. We shall see. 

I'm done now. Thanks for reading. And I should have entitled this blog something about vent, rants, and other negativity...that tends to be what I'm doing lately. The glass is half full.... optimism. yessss

xoxo   

oy oy

Well, hello new phone that I just bought! That's right kiddies, new phone. More bliss. It's a whole new thing for me too. Why you ask is it different than any phone I've had before? It is a freakin touch screen! Plus, it finishes my words when texting, has awesome features, and basically better than any phone I've had in the past. Because it is new, I have no idea how to use it. Ha...dang. I'm in the process of reading the manual. (Which btw, I kinda enjoy reading manuals. Weird, I know). Plus, I now have internet on my phone. So far it's come in handy.  

I have about five posts waiting to be posted, but I just don't know if I want to post them. Since when did I become so picky? 

This week I have learned some very valuable lessons. 

A. I met a 97 year old woman, who came into the shop Wednesday. She was born in the year 1913. whoa. She came in with her husband. They were adorable. Plus, she acted like she was early eighties. Go go go! It was awesome. I want to be like that. Live to be in the 90's maybe even 100's and be still so happy and in love with my hubby. Also, to be that sharp and young like. Sweet.

B. My religion class is fabulous. I'm learning so much. I can't write fast enough to keep up. I just learn and relearn so much wonderful knowledge and it all pertains to what I'm experiencing right now. Lovely.

Here's briefly what I learned this week:

                            ~Forgive and forget. Leave the past in the past, especially if that person has repented and moved on, you should to. Don't hold things against them. The Lord forgives and remembers them no more when a person truly repents, so you should be able to do the same. We live in the present, look towards the future and forget the past (learn from it, but move on). 

                    ~ Fear: Most things you worry about never actually happen. Fear is an exaggerated overreaction to a bad experience. Fear comes from the adversary, when we fear our faith decreases. Faith can not reside where fear is present. Fear decreases the ability to love. The Lord can't help us grow without having experiences good and bad. We can't be afraid to experience things. We build these fears and it's never as bad as we thought it would be. Most fear comes from incomplete knowledge. 

                      ~ A Right Person compared to the right person: Before marriage it is a right person after marriage it becomes the right person. Definition of right is righteous or upright/ suitable and appropriate/ Real and genuine.
                           ~All the lists that you make about future qualities in a spouse are good things to think about. However, it should be written differently and viewed differently. For example, there should be like 3 columns. Nice: so things it would be nice of them to have ie blue eyes, plays guitar... Important: like makes me a better person... and Essential: so things like worthy priesthood holder, spiritually strong and mature, will take me to the Celestial kingdom. Or this could be viewed as a Good, Better, Best list. What happens is, too often we make these lists and focus so much on them that we wither become self-righteous and picky, or we do not realize those qualities we want in a spouse need to be the qualities that we ourselves possess. We need to be focusing on the essential list.
C. I am way too harsh on myself. (I've said it in past posts) I have this self image and sometimes I may be interested in a guy and think, nah, I don't deserve someone that good. I have this issue with thinking of myself of not being good enough. Which really isn't true at all. I deserve the best dang it! haha. Weaknesses...working on it.   

D. So, because of my weakness and self-image I tend to not be approachable. It's really quite sad, because I love people and I want them to get to know me and vise versa.
E. Being social. I am not the best at being social. Big groups aren't my things, I hate and get easily embarrassed being the center of attention. I am more stand offish when I'm in a crowd. I like small groups where I can get to know people and they can get to know me. Plus sometimes, I really just like staying inside and not going out to actually do anything. I'm a low key person. I actually love having people always over, but I'm embarrassed because my apartment never seems to stay clean. I hate when people come over and it's messy. So the problem is people can't get to know me and I can't get to know them. I think my bishop is hinting I need to be more social. Which is very true, but I just don't know. I'm not the type to invite myself over or apart of something. I don't tag along, unless I'm asked too. I always need to be invited...actual words saying 'Hey Steph want to do this or this or come with,' type thing. Kind of silly.
F. My bishop rocks. I don't think I've ever been really close with any of my bishops in the past and Bishop Rust is just incredible. He understands me. It's really nice to be able to discuss things with him with ease and have him just be so helpful and gives good suggestions and advice. It's great.
G. The guys in my ward are retarded.... They don't ask girls out, they can't be honest with girls, they lead them on, they just hang out, they find excuses why they don't want to date you, they only take you out on one date, they're immature, they don't know what they want, they're clueless, most of them are in their later 20's and not actively pursuing to find a wife. (Which everything in the church and this life prepares and leads us to that. Marriage and exaltation.) I don't mean to pound on them, because I definitely understand that it goes both ways. But they are a difficult breed. ha. Plus, at work today my bishop and I had a huge conversation about all of this and what they guys are doing and what girls have to do. How times have changed and other stuff. It was a good conversation and it was fun to relay the things that I have heard and noticed, and the things that he has noticed.

And...love is in the air. Not for me, no worries. haha. But everyone else engaged, and whatnot. Mainly engaged. I'm so happy for them. eh.

Why do you think when we sing in church, we don't sing a lot of the hymns? We just stick to the ones we know. Why don't we get to know the other ones. Some of them are so incredibly beautiful.

Andddd Good news!

-Aaron and Molly are finally engaged. This means that I get a fabulous new sister n' law and everyone in my family is happily married...minus me. (But I don't count. I still have plenty of time)

-Chris and Kara are expecting! Yippee! I'm thinking it's a boy...I get to be an aunt! hot dog!

-My Dayne is coming in like a month. Yeah buddy!

-Valerie is coming out here in like 2 weeks to go mission shopping. I'm excited to see her and spend time with her. 

-Uh, and life is grand.
-I really need to write more often so my posts aren't always this long.
-Every notice how most of my posts are lists? I like making lists. :)

Way to make it to the end of this post! Give yourself a pat on the back for reading an entirely too long of a post filled with my nonsense and rambling. haha.

xoxo

Slow down everyone you're moving too fast

Can I just ask, where has the time gone? It's true what they say, the older you get the faster time goes. So not cool. It's May. It just seemed like it was January yesterday. Can we just freeze time? Just for a little while. I've been evaluating my life recently (I do this a lot actually) and my conclusion is this:

• I'm not nearly where I thought I would be or where I want to be at this point in my life.
• I will probably never go back and read through my journals. Maybe when I'm really old and want to reminisce on my life. However, I hate reading back over them. Journals are my way of escaping, putting things behind me and never having to look back.
• I look towards the future. I do not want the past to haunt me, and I have a hard time living in the presence without looking to the future. 
• I'm a pretty friendly person, but I have a very hard time getting close and trusting. Well not trusting, but giving people the opportunity to get to know me better. I tend to hold myself back. 
• I think of myself as a very patient person, but recently the patience has been tested. Probably a good thing, but still difficult.
• Sometimes what I need more then anything is to have a deep, meaningful conversation. Particularly on spiritual matters but really life in general is always a good topic. But I don't have those conversations very often nor do I have people I can turn to to just have those. I think having meaning and purpose makes me tick. 
• I am way too hard on myself, but I do not know how to lighten up.
• I hate conflict. I know lots of people do, but I especially do. I do not handle it well. When I'm surrounded by it, when I'm in it, when I have to deal with it. I hate yelling, fighting, arguing, debates, basically negative feelings. I freeze, tense up, can't stand my ground. And usually I stay quite or try to advert the situation. 
• I need to step out of my comfort zone.
• I love so many things in my life, and I am extremely blessed well beyond what I deserve.

I don't know if I mentioned this before but I took the Myers-Briggs test. (Which is basically like a personality test that is usually pretty accurate. Kinda like the color test but more specific. And we all know how much I love learning about personalities and well myself). I took part of one. The full test is like $50 to take or something, and much more correct. My results were that I am a INFJ. Which stands for Introverted, iNtuitive, Feeling, Judging. I am one of the rarest types. Only 1% of the population is this type. And let me tell you, they got me dead on. Everything about this type is me to a T. It's incredible how accurate it is. This is the part where I go on about all the different characteristics and attributes a INFJ person has, but that's a lot of researching and typing. So if you want to learn more about, and understand me better I suggest you Google it.  It's all very fascinating. Or you should take the test and find out more about yourself. Eh eh?

Also, as a side note can I just say how annoying the screaming that is constantly going on outside in the courtyard of my complex is? Talk about obnoxious! I may start opening my window and screaming back just to get a reaction. Is it really necessary to scream? Is your life in danger? Are you about to die? If not shut up! Courtesy people, come on now. I do not mind them having a good time, I'm a girl who loves having fun believe me I get that. But, when it is 11pm-2am or even later the screaming has got to stop. Go to bed! It drives me nuts I tell you, absolutely nuts. 

Do you ever have those days when you just shouldn't have gotten out of bed? Yup that day would be today for me. blah.

I bought a book the other day at Barnes and Noble. It's called the Book of Awesome. And it is indeed awesome. It's about getting excited about the little stuff and enjoying the everyday simple things in life. For example: the cold side of the pillow, waking up before your clock and realizing you still have time to sleep in, universal fry-sharing policy, fixing electronics by hitting them, the perfect milk to cereal ratio....and on and on. Fabulous yeah?! Oh it is. I find myself laughing a lot at the small things in life. Here's the link for the website it's basically the same as the book. check it out!

http://1000awesomethings.com/the-top-1000/

I have a new calling. I am the Ward Music Director. Yikes! Actually, I think it's a fabulous calling for me. However, I think it is going to be challenging. My main duties are picking the songs for Sunday, coming up with musical programs (easter, Christmas, whatever), getting musical numbers together (choirs, duets, solos), attend ward council, lead if the chorister is not there, and other things. I was asked to be in charge of choir as part of this calling. I never say no to callings and I try my best to say yes knowing the Lord knows what He is doing, but I just couldn't say yes. The task of being in charge of the choir was beyond my capability. I went in to a panic attack when the bishop asked me to. Finding music, working on separate parts, making it all come together. I just didn't see how it was possible. So I said no, knowing there are others more qualified for being in charge of choir. So he's getting someone else to be the choir director. But, I do get to oversee choir and have input. So that's good! I think this will be a very good calling for me, I'm just interested to see the challenges and how things will work. haha.  

The General Conference Ensign magazine has officially come out. I'm beyond excited. I can now read the talks and highlight away! eek!

My roommates and I have decided this Friday is speak in third person day. It's a lot of fun. Stephanie thinks this a very good idea, and Stephanie thinks the readers of this blog will also enjoy taking part of this special day. Stephanie says join in on the action. haha

Until next time my loves...

xoxo

Bad Romance

So, I wrote a post and was about to hit the publish button but I came across this video on a friend's page on fb. This is pretty cool and I decided it is much better then what I was originally going to post. Enjoy!

See more funny videos and TBT Videos at Today's Big Thing.

xoxo

Did I mention?

Everyone and there dog is getting married...yup that's right. Or having babies. Just saying.

"Orem, UT : 360 West University Parkway : Opening date to be announced later."

And the ever so wonderful Hob Lob is opening in a a couple of months. To work there again or to not?

It may or may not be 1:30-2ish am. I may or may not have been working on my Hug Essay. (Which is becoming more brilliant as it progresses, but so much effort!) I learned this today...

"Four hugs a day is essential to our health, eight hugs leads to emotional stability and twelve hugs leads to personal growth." ---I need some hugs. haha.

I'm exhausted, there is not enough time in the day. Yup 24hrs, just like everyone else. Got it. I have to get up in 5 hrs. yikes.

  

Nighty Night! Sweet Dreams! (Have I ever mentioned how much I love when someone, especially guys, tell me sweet dreams? I seriously sleep 10xs better, plus it's a adorable. aha presh )

xoxo

Some witty title here

Here's the deal, I've been working on different blog posts for a while now. The problem is, I write them and then read them, and delete delete delete. I'm having writer's block. haha. So this is what I finally decided on: Recently what I have learned or realized in the last little while. And I don't like this post either. But here it goes...

Spring Term has officially started. I'm only taking 3 classes but goodness, It's still overwhelming. It's only been a week, and I'm stressed, kinda. However, I love my classes. There are some fabulous people in them and they are really good classes!

And I feel as though a huge burden has been lifted, I finally finished retaking American Heritage. Hallelujah!


So things I've learned in my classes this past week... 

Religion 234: LDS Marriage and Family Relations aka Marriage Prep (I know, I'm not getting married, but this stuff is good to know for when the time comes! Plus, I think I learn and relate more to this class spiritually than any other religion class.)

  

"The study of doctrine will change your behavior quicker than a study of behavior will change your behavior."

We learned about the Character of God. Powerful stuff. My professor made a comment about how God emulates his characteristics so He can teach us.  Or reveals something that may be a weakness for us that we need to work on. So dang true! I can't tell you how many times I have been taught something that I myself need to work on. (Usually, it tends to be the same thing. I'm hard-headed sometimes). For example, we may be in need of forgiveness so we pray and ask for forgiveness and He gives that to us, yet we won't forgive our fellow beings. So He tries to teach us that what He does for us, we need to do for others. My professor also told a personal story of going to a conference and there was an apostle present and my professor was sitting on the front row and he said this apostle, Elder Packer, bore a simple testimony. "I know He Lives." But my professor said he just saw the love, the surety in his eyes and heard it in his voice. And ever since then, he has wanted to be sure that everyone that he comes in contact with knows he knows. He also wanted to know without a doubt in his mind, the face of His father. It makes you question can you personally know without a doubt the face of God? Do you know the character of God? Every time you feel the Spirit, ask yourself what is God revealing about His character to me?

  

SFL 110: Cooking

I'm taking a cooking class. Because twice a week for about 2.5 hrs each I get to make food and eat it. It's fabulous. The funny thing though is no one in my class knows how to cook. Disaster! Some even went shopping for the first time by themselves recently and didn't know what to do. Thanks mom for preparing me to be a grown up and letting me cook and shop all while growing up. So it's interesting working in groups and watching the mistakes and watching them learn. haha. 
Ps. When I was looking for a photo for this topic, I came across college cookbooks that teach college students to cook. Who knew?! haha.

English 218: Creative Writing

"We sleepwalk through most of our lives...and...every once in a while something happens...outside ourselves that forces us to pay attention in a new way, or something happens inside us that enables us to pay attention in a new way. And we suddenly realize that the world is so much richer, and more magnificent, and more wonderful than we had felt for a long time. Not to sentimentalize..., but I think children live much more continuously in a state of awareness of the miraculousness of existence. "

"The world exists. Why recreate it? I want to think about it, try to understand it...I want a literature built entirely out of contemplation and revelation...The real story isn't the drama of what happens; it's what we're thinking about while nothing, or very little, is happening."

My major is English. Have I mentioned that? I'm in this creative writing class, which I am loving. The professor is so great. This class is focused not so much on the grammar side of things but the content; the feel of the paper. Recently we have been working on writing with your senses. Being specific and concrete. We read an essay by a BYU professor, Madden, (who is an incredible writer) about laughter. It was so interesting. Our assignment is to write an essay on something similar. So, I am writing about hugs. I really kinda love my paper thus far (I'm sure I'll be saying something else in a few weeks). I should make a link to my rough draft..eh maybe when it's finished I will. But my paper is about all the different types of hugs; side hug, linger hug, the hug that ends with a kiss, the too tight hug, the too light hug...seriously there is a ton of hugs. And my paper is hilarious, describing them.  Maybe I give myself too much credit though. ha 

Um, one of my assignments is to write in a journal everyday. There is a contest to see if someone beats the teacher on most entries. I'm totally going to win. Hello, I'm an avid journal writer. The purpose is to become more routine in journal writing and to have better writing skills. Also, be more descriptive and specific. I love writing in my journal. And he doesn't read them, which is even more fabulous. The day I let someone read my journal, my personal thoughts, will be a very big day and a major step for me. Hopefully one day, I will be able to. 

Church:

The men in my ward, are fabulous. I say this because, today I was admiring them. (I do this sometimes, don't think I'm creepy) But in all honesty, they are some great guys. Now I'm not saying I would go out and date all of them, I am just saying they have some very good qualities about them. I could really see something more in them. Today in Relief Society we talked about seeing people through God's eyes. And I think in a way, that's what I was catching a glimpse of. And I love watching guys respect women and actually taking the time to care and do the little things. I'm telling you, it's the little things in life that mean the most. I really enjoyed just looking at these wonderful, good-looking men dressed up so nicely and with a smile on their faces, light in their eyes, and honoring their priesthood. 

I also realized one of the best things is watching people share their testimony. They are so passionate in what they believe and what they know. I just see their eyes smile. And it just warmed my heart, because I can relate. That feeling, of knowing so strongly in your heart that something is true. You just want to shout it to the entire world! I love being able to talk about spiritual things with people and have a good response in return.  

Life:

It's May, and it is still cold and snowyish. Not cool.


Today is National Defeat Voldemort Day. Love me some Harry Potter. In honor of it, I watched one of the HP movies. love.


I love being seen. haha silly I know who doesn't? No seriously though, when people go out of their way to see me, or stop by and say hi, or send a text, or just talk to me on fb chat. I like knowing I'm loved. 

Yozone has red velvet frozen yogurt...hott dang it's delicious. It's like I'm eating a moist piece of cake.

I'm due for a cell phone upgrade in a few weeks. yay yay!


There are new faces in the ward. I love new faces and getting to know people! 


Winco opens tomorrow. I'm excited to check it out. It's like better than Walmart and the produce is better and it's cheaper.  

I'm a terrible friend, I haven't contacted anyone recently and see what's going on in their life. Yikes. Even my own family. I'm just busy. I need to skype and catch up. I hate losing contact.

Other:

I recently read Blogger Brawls on Mormon Times. I'm still loving every post. haha. But I was reading the most recent brawl for tomorrow and this guy said this in his post. I find it truthful, insightful, and well...my thoughts exactly. His topic is on people being out of their league and how it's so not true. And he talks about how you see a couple and you wonder how did that guy, that doofus, end up with someone like her? His answer?

"So how did he do it? Here's a novel idea: He asked her out. Holy crap, Calvin's on to something. But seriously, think about it. You only marry the people you date; and you only date the people you ask out. So by the transitive property of Mormon dating, you only marry the people you ask out. Math sucks, but it works.So, guys, this means that if you have a girl in mind that is "out of your league," you should get up the nerve to ask her out. Make sure she doesn't have a boyfriend. Make small talk once or twice then ask her on a date (a real date)."

Calvin's the man! haha. After this he goes on to talk about girls can ask guys out too. Psh, that's not what I wanted to focus on. Been there, done that. Guys man up! (nah that's mean.) haha.

My roommate introduced me to this hilarious website. http://cakewrecks.blogspot.com/ These are professional cakes, that are screwed up. So funny!!


This post is ridiculous, I am not satisfied by it's content. Eh, at least it's an update. Happy new week!
xoxo