Motherhood

This entry is dedicated to my wonderful mother! She's an amazing person, and I don't just say that because she is my mother but truly she really is quite amazing. She never thinks of herself. She's always trying to do what's best for her kids and for everyone. She is selfless. I can't even recall the countless things and many sacrifices she has done for me. Her family is always on her mind and she is constantly worried about us. I wouldn't be here today if it weren't for her. I'm so glad that her and I get along. She really is one of my best friends. I can go to her for anything and she doesn't judge. She openly loves me for me and always knows exactly what to say. I can talk to her about anything. I love our many talks and our many laughs. Sometimes I just call her to hear her voice because I know that everything will be okay when I talk to her. I love how happy she is whenever she talks to me. I love how she always reminds me how proud she is of me and how much she loves me. I can't ever repay or thank you enough for all that you do for me, but thank you. I love you Mommy! xoxo

Finding Balance.

I must say that throughout my life I have tried to find a good happy medium. A good balance in my life. Usually on very rare occasion I stumble across it.

This is where I find myself. I am completely happy. Seriously and truly happy. I feel very in sync with the world and with in myself. It's a marvelous feeling! I think this has to do with a few things. I'm getting my priorities straight. I mean I've always known what they are but I kinda focus on all of them at once. I'm organizing them and really focusing on what's more important and doing them highest priority first.

1. My main priority,school. I love school. Haha. I think school is a very good thing for me. I love learning. I love being challenged. I feel productive and accomplished. I've been staying on top of my studies and focusing and understanding. I'm hoping all this hard works pay off and that I will be able to stay for fall.

2.I am spiritually changing. I am more efficient in my scripture studies and more aware of my personal spiritual well being. I am challenging my spirituality and growing.

3. I am using my time wisely. I'm organizing my time. I'm making to do lists and accomplishing them. I get to bed early and rise early. (something I've never been able to do) I find myself plenty of time to study and then time to do all those things I've wanted to do. Like reading books, and enhancing my talents. I actually feel like I'm not wasting any hour of the day. Crazy.

4. I'm finding the right balance with my social life. I'm a very social, outgoing, person. I'm meeting tons of people, getting involved, and still have the right sense when to say no and give myself some me time.

5. I'm getting better exercise and eating a little healthier. Along with still taking my vitamins. So physically my body is pretty happy.

Things are wonderful. Life is good. I'm finding myself discovering, as time goes on, a better outlook on life. Alright this was more so a journal entry for me.....

But, I'm going home in two weeks! I'm stoked to see everyone and have everyone together. That like never happens. I love family. And there are so many cute guys I'm getting to know! haha. yay! Anyways....find the balance. xoxo

on a flight to a new beginning

Not really to a new beginning...it just sounded like a way cool title. haha



First off, this is the wonderful state I call home. Georgia! Look at how green it is and all the trees. The houses with lots of space between them and all scattered around.



Here's on the plane.....My weird obsession with how fascinating the clouds are continues.




Here's Utah, not so green, not so many trees, and lots of houses planned out exactly next to each other.

But this right here is one of the many reasons Utah is absolutely beautiful to me...



I LOVE the mountains! I just can't get enough of them and how gorgeous they are! My apartment has the best view of them.

It snowed the one of the first few days while I was in Utah. I guess it was a welcoming present or something.

Anyways I made it safely back to Utah. It's so pretty here! I like the feeling of being where you belong, and as I flew in to Utah I was overwhelmed.

I never liked Utah, have I mentioned that before? I never in a million years wanted to go to BYU where girls go just to get married, and somehow that's where my path has taken me. Funny.

When people ask me where I am from I have been getting the same question in response to my answer, "Why did you come to BYU?" It seems as if they have a hard time believing why on earth would I decide on BYU. Which always surprises me. I tend to snap back with "Well duh why not?" People seem to take advantage of how extraordinary this school really is. Where else would you have almost all of the students be part of the same religion as you? Where else would you start class with a word of prayer to bring in the Spirit? Where else would the professors include scriptures and talks by Apostles and Prophets in the lessons? This school is amazing! It's one of the best experiences I've had the opportunity to experience. I love being able to be here and attended this school.

I started back in classes, and I love my schedule. My favorite class, you'll never guess...Marriage Prep. Haha I dropped Math because I hate it and decided to take Marriage Prep. This isn't the religion Marriage Prep this is really School of Family Life, Marriage Prep. It's actually a really fun and interesting class. I'm not saying I'm ready to go out and get married because of this class, I'm just saying it's teaching me a lot of things I never have really thought about. I find myself getting more spiritually out of this class than my actual New Testament class. The professor is a really great teacher. He loves what he does and actually cares about each student individually. Also, he doesn't treat it as if it's another college course but like an actual life lesson. He also uses a ton of quotes, which I can't seem to get enough of! My first paper is a based on a survey I have to take. There are 2 surveys. One if you are currently single it will show if you are ready for a committed relationship and the second one is for those who are in a relationship and it sees if you're ready for marriage. I will be taking the first one, obviously. It will show my weaknesses and strengths. Should be quite interesting :) haha.

My other classes are New Testament and Family Recreational. I really need to stop taking these prep classes. The only people I ever meet are girls and very few guys who are mainly....engaged, married, and/or have kids. That's BYU for you! haha I love it though!

Darn you weight limit!

I hate the 50lb weight limit for suitcases when flying....how gay! My stuff is heavy. I can go over 50lbs easily. First off the suitcase ways a ton. 50lbs is not my stuff, it's mainly the daggum suitcase! Second of all, stuff people need like clothes are dang heavy! I think a pair of jeans is like 3lbs honestly. It's totally not right. I'm packing for Utah, obviously, and it's 2am. This is ridiculous, and it makes me extremely frustrated. I hate packing. It's like the worst thing ever. I need a personal packer. I'm going to have to wake up tomorrow and repack. It's this never ending cycle. Fill it up, take things out, weigh it, put more in, take more out, weigh again. I'm sure everything will still not fit, no matter how much you roll it or take things out. Ugh! Also paying for my luggage, seriously so so stupid! In the end, I'll somehow take out a ton of stuff I need from my suitcases and then get it shipped, so that's more money wasted. Flying is stressful....the end.

Buttttttttt on a happy note, yay for going to Utah! Also, my bff Kacy and I filmed us doing the hoedown throwdown. It's great and really hilarious. haha Y'all will get a kick out of it! xoxo