Poetry

Here are some poems I wrote for my Creative Writing class. They are works in progress, mind you.

Waiting Call

After Mary Oliver’s ‘The Rabbit’

Solicitous,

And in a dismay.

The pressure, an evil we all face,

Is on the rampage. And the buttons that cover

Are worn thin with the goodness of use

Lay untouched now. Only he,

And his omnipotent keys of hope ,

Have the necessary power. I tremble

With anticipation, as the light begins to

Progressively get brighter. I inhale

The flashes of memories in my mind, that seem so distant now,

Springing like death from a scene from a movie

Beckoning me

To partake. And suddenly

I can. Time passes quickly and the moment has slipped,

By a second of hesitation. Beyond my great fear

I catch a glimpse of hope shining through, a wish that has come

True on a bight shooting star—

Don’t you understand this madness?—the cycle begins once again.

Mr. Goose

Still, silence

The end has come

A friend has fallen

The darkness surrounds him

Lying there in the mist of blackness

With no rocket of hope for a tomorrow

Sprawled out

Fallen from the rusty looking basket

Beautiful, vibrant

Perfection of pure whiteness

Completely lifeless

Wings ruffled but peaceful

Ever so peaceful

The hollow glasses stand near

A sign of emptiness

This journey has come to a close Mr. Goose

The stilled life

I'm a poet and didn't even know it!! haha

xoxo

So now I come to you with open arms

....I love the song "Open Arms" by Journey. Beautiful. 

Hopefully this won't be too terribly long. Get ready for the list and rambles: 

• My bishop was adorable today. His little grandson came into the shop today and he took him to the safe and was showing him different tubes of coins and shaking them. Then he says "Can you say coin? What about penny?" Starting him young. haha. I love little children, and their beaming faces, oh that laugh. That precious laughter. Aha....
• My future husband better be able/willingly to do the dishes. I hate dishes, and I feel like lately that is all I've been doing. It's not hard to wash your dish, and put it in the dishwasher. Empty the dishwasher every once in a while....come on people.
• Random yelling is happening outside my apartment again. Awesome.
• I'm setting people up in the P3 box (Planned, Prepared, Paid for..dating box). It's going to be brilliant. Shh, don't tell anyone though. 
• One of my happiest moments this week, is the fact that my bishop gave me the ward member sheets. So now I know who is musically talented. There is so many people in the ward that have music abilities, you have no idea how excited I am about this.  
• I am very tired, my bed is beckoning me. But the hw is screaming at me. Such a shame. 
• Dear John just came out on DVD. Grant it, this movie made me bawl and feel like I had just gone through an incredibly difficult break-up, but I am going to buy it. Why? Because their is a beautiful, sexy man in it, sometimes I like when it doesn't end all happy, and if I do want it to end happy I trick my mind and stop it at a happy part. haha. Win.
• There is an incredible opportunity that is in reach, maybe. A lady from Bonneville Communications, who I have been e-mailing, is looking to hire some video editors. They do a lot of work for the missionaries and things in the church. Think of the possibilities! Plus, I would love love love it. 
•  This weekend is Memorial Day...my plans consist of pool, laying out, reading, studying, basking in my awesomeness....ha. yikes.
• I made chocolate mousse Monday. It was delicious and so easy to make. 
• I love envelopes that when you lick the seal, it taste somewhat decent. Hallmark, would be one of those examples.
• I really need to do my hw like now.
• My next Netflix movie is Rocketman. Does is ring a bell?... Disney channel, 1997, space blanket costumes, painting with food, monkey, idiot genius? I'm so excited to watch it. haha. 
• I love the random nicknames, or code-names that my friends and I come up for people. :)
• I received a hilarious text today, that made me laugh literally out loud. I can not pass this text along though, it would not make sense to the common person. ha. 
• I especially enjoyed my religion class tonight, so many beautiful topics. However, this is not the time nor place to discuss them.
• Happy Birthday to my MA today! She's fabulous, and I miss her a lot, a lot. 3 months until I see her! yay!
• I forget the purpose of this post....haha

thoughts over. 

xoxo.

Disgusted

Before I go into why I am disgusted I have some others things to say...

First off, I'd like to say that people are so creative in this world! I love reading blogs. I love finding a new, good one, to read often that catches my attention. When I find out someone, that I'm good friends with, has a blog, I go crazy! haha. I love how colorful, and full of pictures, and videos, and eye popping some blogs are. Also, some people talk about the funniest things, and they are so witty, or so insightful. And then there is my blog. haha. I only know what I think of it, I do not know how an outside reader looking in feels about my posts. Do share your thoughts and feelings...

This has nothing to do with anything on my mind, but I use to hate broccoli and especially broccoli salad. Now I love it. It's one of my favorite things to eat. I just made an incredible broccoli salad, courtesy of my cooking class, and it's divine. 

I spent the day on campus in the library. To be more exact I was in the periodical section. Fabulous. I never spend much time in this section of the library, however I think I will start. I was working on my literary project which basically is reading poetry, short stories, essays...very exciting. I love reading.  

I went to Smith's to buy some cream. I found a fabulous recipe of chocolate mousse that I want to try. So, while I was at the store I was in my own little world thinking about my experience at the At&t store, when this guy was walking past me. I kind of came back to reality and noticed him, he looked sort of familiar. He smiled, I still had my look of contemplating on my face (which looks like I'm ticked, btw), and then I see it. The awkward almost wave- they don't respond -so pretend you were scratching an itch- type wave. Embarrassing. He was trying to wave, but seeing as I had this look of back off, I'm annoyed on my face, and because I didn't even acknowledge him, he tried to act like he wasn't waving. Yikes. I only recognized this wave because, I have been on the opposite end of this situation many, many times. I know someone, I try and wave, they stare, quick, change the wave to fixing my hair. Awkward. I felt bad. Especially since, I didn't realize how I knew him until 10 secs later. I had to play the whole go through my entire life and see if I can remember him. At first I thought he was in my ward, nope he's from my English class. Which makes it even more sad because there is only like 10 people in there. haha oops 

I've been listening/watching Brian Regan's comedy acts on youtube. (Apparently it's a sin that I've only recently heard of him, and never listened to his acts) He's funny and pretty clean, which is refreshing. Here's  one I just heard and about peed my pants from laughing so hard.

I went to At&t to get a clear cover for my touch screen. Well first off I went in and usually they are super nice and helpful. However, I went to the store in towne center, which is not the normal at&t store that I go to. There were only two guys working. Well, I walked in and they looked at me, no smile, no hi, no nothing. So I look around trying to find the cover, no luck. So I go up to the counter. They didn't say a word to me. I finally had to say, "Excuse me, can I get some help?" Well, one of the guys walks over to me and asks what he can help me with. I explain, he kind of directs me towards  the cover section. He looked at my phone and says "oh you have a so and so phone" He had no clue what phone I had. Well, I already saw that my phone's cover wasn't there. So he starts to look. A couple that walked in behind me were over in another section looking at stuff. So what does the idiot do that is helping me? Stops looking for what I needed and asks the other couple if he can help them. Then he walks over to them and starts to help them. For real? Talk about bad customer service. That's so rude! I seriously was about to start going off on him, or walk out. Oh it made me so angry! He completely ignores me and helps this couple, check out and all, and I am still standing there (I'm sure steam was fuming from my ears). The other guy who is working finally takes notice of me and says oh you're still here. err duh. He looks up where I can get a cover. There is one apparently located at another store across the street or something. So they asked me if I could wait, give them like 15 mins to run and get it and bring it back. I leave go to bath and body works and come back. They had it, and put it on for me. Which I did appreciate. And it turns out the rude guy knows my cousin from like years ago when she was a freshman at BYU before her husband and kids. Great. Wouldn't that make you angry though? I should have left, I should have said something, instead I will be writing an email to At&t. kthanks.

Now for my story. While I was at the At&t store, the semi helpful guy decided to make small talk. There was a kid, I'd say about 10 or so, that was in the store looking at an iphone and he wanted to know where the volume was. They couldn't figure out why he wanted to know, and he just kept saying "I need volume!" Anyways, so the guy made a comment to me that he hates kids. I asked why. He responded saying, there was this kid that came in yesterday and he walked to the phones to look at them. And following behind the kid there was the At&t's friend who works for t-mobile. So the friend was like staring the kid down. Well the At&t  guy went to him and asked the t-mobile guy what's going on, and he told him he needs to keep an eye on the kid and watch him closely.  Apparently, the kid was looking at porn on the phones. The At&t guy walks over to the kid and the kid quickly tries to exit out of what he's looking at. Well, the At&t guy brings it up and he kicks the kid out and tells him that he can't look at stuff like that on the phones.---Are you kidding me?! Has the world really gotten that bad where people, even children, go into a public place and look at pornography? I was shocked! What the heck is wrong with people? Do they not realize how inappropriate that is? Do they not feel guilty when someone catches them looking at that trash? What is going through their mind? Pornography is addicting, and it's destructive. Oh my goodness! I had no idea how 'common' this was to people. I am disturbed, disgusted, and appalled. 

I don't mean to talk about such sensitive subjects. I realize people may have a problem with this, or other things similar to this. It's a reality though, and we need to take hold of this serious issue and stop it in it's path, before it destroys everything and everyone. I know people are out there that have problems with this, and I know the temptation may be enticing, but it will ruin you.We are all human and we all will be tempted by the adversary. However, help is out there. You can overcome and you should. There is hope, change is possible. The church came out with a new website for those who are dealing with overcoming pornography, or helping someone you know overcome with it. I think it's a good website, not just for those dealing with this, but for everyone to look at. It's a harsh reality, but it needs to be addressed and taken care of. 

  http://combatingpornography.org/cp/eng/    

Okay, this post ended up being a lot longer than I wanted it to be. Whoops. And just think this was only about today, this one day. haha. 

xoxo

I would like to point out

I love serving others and giving. I like making someone's day, giving encouragement, and doing something unexpected. It brings me happiness. I like knowing that I may have done something to lift their spirits, even if it's just for a brief second. I am a very service oriented individual. 

 However, when I work on something, and I go out of my way to do something, it would be nice if: 1) it actually worked out, and my efforts weren't a complete waste 2) if they could be sincerely grateful and 3) maybe eventually return the favor (I know asking a lot. This one isn't that necessary to me. I'm okay with giving and not receiving for the most part).  

It drives me nuts when I take the time to do something and it doesn't work out, especially if it's something that I do against my better judgement. I'm being nice when sometimes I shouldn't go through that effort especially if they treated me a certain way. I know that has something to do with holding grudges, but there is a limit to how many times someone can put up with getting mistreated by another person. I tend to overlook that and do it anyways though. Hence the regretting afterwards because of how it played out or how they responded. I'll still continue giving no matter how someone treats me, it's just who I am. 

And as far as the being grateful, I like doing things usually without them knowing. But when it is obvious, give credit where credit is due. Just a simple thanks would be nice. I try to show my gratitude, it makes me a happier person and makes me realize blessings I have in my life. 

My situation currently would be the first, wasted effort. And now, here I sit disappointed that I even bothered going through with it all. It was a simple off on timing thing, but still if you knew the story behind this, you would understand my frustrations. I give them credit for at least thanking me for the thought...blah.

Don't find me odd,(even though I really am) but I have to write poetry for my creative writing class. I just wrote a poem about this. ha. I'm actually enjoying writing poetry. In a few short words you can expound on so much. Every line can take on a different meaning. Fascinating really. Plus, I kind of feel better now, after writing it. Maybe I'll share my poetry in the next few posts. We shall see. 

I'm done now. Thanks for reading. And I should have entitled this blog something about vent, rants, and other negativity...that tends to be what I'm doing lately. The glass is half full.... optimism. yessss

xoxo